My terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day!

Ok, so maybe it wasn't THAT bad...  but it was still kind of a hard day.  My HCT blood level is really low again, only 1 point above having to be hospitalized so I expected to be tired.  Got to work though (even early) and planned to stay the whole day but mid way thru the day I realized that I couldn't do it.  I'm kind of a "grit your teeth and get it done no matter what-" type of person so admitting defeat is hard.  "Admitting defeat" is probably a bit dramatic-- more like accepting the fact that I have limits and can't keep doing, doing, doing like I could before.  These are the times that I feel most emotional and discouraged. Luckily, so far I am able to keep bouncing back even if it takes a day or two.

So I came home early and had kind of a fall-apart day...  Tried watching shows that I DVR'd but I kept falling asleep.  Had the TV on for probably 8 hours and only made it thru about 2 hours of shows because I had to keep starting them over.  So between napping and crying spells, the day passed and I went to bed early... Sad thing is that I have several projects that I could have been working on, low energy projects doing things that I enjoy and could have done, but I just didn't have the motivation to do anything.  Guess some days will be like that.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better.  I am scheduled for a transfusion tomorrow afternoon (and a dentist appt. in the morning because I still know how to have a great time...).  Generally I feel a lot better a day or so after a transfusion but last time it was almost an immediate difference.  I hope it is that way tomorrow...

Luckily, I do have some things to look forward to.... Going to Las Vegas next weekend to see the Cirque du Soleil show "Love".  Hoping to also FINALLY do a Segway tour.  Not sure why that has become such an obsession with me but it has.  Should be a fun weekend and timing wise I should be feeling pretty good!